A Messy Ministry Moment

Yesterday was one of those tough days of ministry. I had a conflict with a co-worker/friend in front of other coworkers/friends. It was a simple misunderstanding that I blew out of proportion. This emotionally driven moment could have been easily avoided if I had been willing to allow humility to elevate our relationship over my pride of needing to be proven “right”.

Thankfully we both are committed to our friendship and worked through it immediately, but, as there is in any group of humans, hurt remains, gossip lingers, and this conflict is added to the pile until it will either be forgotten or is able to be laughed about one day. 

Unfortunately, because everyone has different personalities, engage in disagreements in opposing ways (hello fight or flight), and ultimately since we are sinners in a fallen world, conflict will happen (even in a Christ-centered environment) at some point with someone. 

I am writing this as I still process and reflect on how I could have better responded to the situation, but two things I am grateful for are His promises that His mercies are new every morning and that the love of Christ covers a multitude of sin. I can’t control how others will engage with me from this point, but through repentance and reconciliation, I can do my part to restore the friendship and trust God to somehow (even if I can’t see it now) redeem the moment and use it to help me grow toward Christ and others. 

 

Your Turn: How do you handle conflict in your workplace? 

BUSY

I don't know what it is about the word "busy," but it has such a negative connotation to me. When someone calls me busy, it runs through my veins like nails on a chalkboard. I am married with three kids, work full time outside the home, like to cook and bake for fun, have a passion for strong friendships, and have recently started building our new home. I admit there is a lot going on in my life, but when someone says that they didn't want to bother me because they know I am so busy... oh man, don't get me started. My sister in law mentioned it over a text the other day, and (my poor sister didn't know what she was walking into...) I gave her an ear full. It hurts my heart and deflates my soul to be defined as busy

When I hear the word busy, it stirs up images of a strung out, burnt out, worn out, tired all the time, running ragged, packed schedule, face in the iPhone, no time for anyone kind of life. Busy days usually end when I lay my head on the pillow and find that I have been running nonstop, but still got nothing done.  

I have decided I prefer the word full. It feels much more intentional, like I packed the luggage so it is stuffed with all the things I chose. And even when it's full, there is always room for one more item that is valuable to me on the journey. I want to be someone who has a full life -- full of laughter and joy, family and friendships, working and playing, good food and great conversations, learning and growing. I love when I lay my head on the pillow and reflect that my day has been non-stop, but with all the things that God has called me to/placed in my path/laid on my heart. Because I want to make the most of the days that the Lord has given me, at first glance it may look busy, but I promise my life is really just full. There is always room for more ; ) 

Your Turn: When you reflect on your days, have they been busy or full?

Overwhelmed and Under Qualified

I'm having one of those days today. I wonder if I am the only one that ever has them, but in case there's anybody out there like me, I thought I would just expose the honest feeling.

It's been an insecure day when I look around at the far more qualified people who can do my job, probably have a better attitude some days, and are way less dramatic than me.

I say all that to say this: Even on our most insecure days, on the days that are lonely, or when we feel overwhelmed and under qualified, we need to realize that God has chosen and called us for this position alongside these people for this season. There's a purpose, not just for what we are doing, but for who we are becoming while doing it. I have so much to learn, so instead of feeling intimidated by others, I choose to use this opportunity to grow both in skill and in character. I don't need to be somebody else. Instead, I will strive to be the best version of me that I can be.

It's on the lonely and insecure days that we look up and say Thank You, that God chose us. He sees right where we are, loves us for who we are, and uses these moments to draw us toward Him.