It was one of those evenings. If every time I beat myself up emotionally, it left physical scars, I am not sure I would be in pretty bad shape today.
I took care of an errand for my boss, thinking it would help him. Unfortunately, though the task was completed, it inconvenienced him and his family greatly. As soon as he texted me about it, I realized the error and tried my best to solve it, but there was nothing really I could do. Grr..I messed up. And then later tonight I missed a text from my boss that needed an answer. Grr... two strikes.
Mercy. Definitely in this new season of three kids, nursing working full time, (did I mention three kids), Grace.
It just amazes me the grace and mercy, patience and forgiveness others have for me. My bosses' wife texted me "No worries girl. All good!" But still... the bruises I leave on my heart and mind every time I fall short, one would think I was trying to be perfect.
This scripture comes quickly to mind: How foolish can you be? After starting your Christian lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect by your own human effort? (Galatians 3:3)
Thank you Lord for allowing me to mess up so that I can remember to look to and lean on the only one who is Perfect. Help me to learn from my mistakes, but not live as a victim to them. (Even my pastor says "You never lose if you learn.) Convict, correct, and then continue, but don't live in condemnation and guilt. You will abuse yourself and leave marks that were already made on another man's body for you.